It was a very Nice weekend, I got to see my sister from Texas & brother inlaw! They flew in for a family funeral for my brother inlaws side of the family! I miss them not living close but it has gotten easier over the 13 years that they have been in Texas. My nephews didnt have to see their aunt have some bad times in the hospitals. They just know I was in. They know I have sick but dont think the fully understand what I have been through. No they are not young anymore 26 & 24 yrs of age they are! I cant believe it. But I would rather have them see me laughing & enjoying life then in pain!

I still remember my first pancreas attack! Then I was a early 20s & just trying to find out why I was having stomach issues. The test I had was the ERCP, I will end having many more in my life time after that one that went bad. The Dr then shot too much dye into my pancreas! That is what caused the most severe acute pancreatitis attack of my life. My numbers were in 50, 000 plus range. Was in the hospital for a month! But we knew what caused that attack! So thought it was my last. Should of known. Changed Doctors of course & went on trying to find my stomach issues! Dec 1999, had another attack. We thought it was my gallbladder. So surgeon took my gallbladder out. It was not really the cause We will later find out. Cause my gall bladder wasnt full of stones to cause such an attack. So then begins the adventure of finding out what causes my attacks! It has been a rollar coaster ride of ups & downs but it has made me see just how strong I am. Also has made my husband & I cherish each other even more! He has been my biggest rock!

Dont be afraid to show your scared during your journey! I have but I also show this illness that I will win! Iam here yet after many doctors have told me I should be dead! I know nice to say to a patient. Also makes you fight harder too!

I know I am all over the place today but I have so much i want to get out I am just learning where to start. Please at anytime if you want to comment or discuss I am here. Rememer No negative stuff! We are all here to support or even to make each other laugh!

Michelle